WOWIE!!! It's been forever!! i have been doing fine. Stuck at home because of. yknow. and have drawn a bit. I don't know whether ill do much more on this site. If im motivated enough to.
Today was pretty good! I went to Dauphin Island with my mom, stepdad, and friend. It was good for a while until my stepdad got stabbed in the foot by a stingray like. dude. fdhjfd. Ya but eventually after going to the hospital we went to an Oriental food market. Also i might do some more character abt pages if I remember to.
I'm going to dematerialize out of existance because school is starting back and I really don't want to deal with it especially since I'm not allowed to make schedule changes despite being allowed to for YEARS but I'm pretty sure the school just got lazy. I kinda DON'T want to take Comp 1 cause I also am taking an English class and with Comp I write an essay basically every week so haha..
I AM however taking botany, psychology, sociology, and genetics so that'll be fun.
I just don't know how I'll get home from school because I don't have a car AND I don't know how to drive. I actually don't care about driving right now because I have to pay for Senior parking and I'm not up for that lmao.
ALSO I DREW SOMETHING TODAY SO.. Look at it..
Sometimes I get really excited when I think about getting a job or owning an apartment with my best friend, but other days, I worry about bills and just never getting a job that I want. SOMETIMES I fear I'll be homeless because I feel like saving money is a lot harder than it looks. Unexpected things happen that I'd have to pay for and then I'd be in debt or something. :'^[
I think that once I get a job I will start saving money for special emergencies or for college or something. Maybe I shouldn't worry as much as I do? I can't even drive yet because I'm so scared to. Driving scary..bad...
I guess I'm still not ready to be an adult yet, but it's not like life is gonna wait for me to be ready anyway.
I have been more confident in my art lately!! Just seeing people actually like it makes me go ♥♥♥ Here's something I made recently!!
I just came back from my dad's house!! I'm glad I saw him again. BUT since I'm home I can now I can do some more digital art and play Terraria >:)c
Sorry I haven't posted another journal entry in like, weeks. I don't have MUCH on my mind. Been kind of sad lately, but it's not anyone's fault.
I've been thinking a lot lately. One specific friend of mine doesn't really talk to me all that much anymore. Sometimes I talk to them but they almost never reply back. Even then, they act like they have no one to talk to!! Maybe they didn't want anyone to think of it like that, but they rarely ever ask me to do stuff with them anyway. I wish they would tell me why. I think they don't want to talk to me anymore, oh well. Other than that my day has been pretty okay. I just got in to this new game called Smile For Me by Yugo Limbo (its super good). I also messed with the site a bit because there was some weird stuff going on but its fixed!! No real appearance change.
Today was wild. My cats got outside so we had to get em all back in, I got cut up by one of them too... This whole year so far has been just a bunch of awful stuff happening and I am so done. JKFJDgbdfjkg The GOOD side is that I got into a new cute show called Unikitty and I watched some episodes with a friend!! I really hope tomorrow is better tho. I'm so tired. Goodnight peeps.
This past week has been pretty good! I've been busy with homework so maybe...eventually...soon.. i will draw more for the Characters page. I actually had some time to draw today after putting a new desk in my room so thats good. I'm also going to a WII museum tomorrow so that's pretty cool too!!
I've been feeling kind of bummed. Sort of because sometimes I feel like my friends are tired of me. I talk noticeably less with my friends nowadays. I also REALLY have been drawing less as well. I can't seem to muster up anything to draw especially new ocs. I feel really bad.
Yo waddup gamers I actually had a good day today. In art class, me and the 4 other people had some good conversation and for once I actually talked to a group of people normally. Yippee..
Oh yeah also summer is comin up soon and I'm not ready for the heat. Gets like.. 90+ where I live so its gonna be...wild.
I've been thinking about my art lately. Sometimes when I scan through my sketchbook, I get a sense of disappointment. Where am I even going to go with my art? It's not really THAT good. I feel like I'm being overly critical of myself, but I can't help but feel displeased with my artstyle. It's sort of...stale? I draw the same things ALL the time and have no ideas. I don't even have real stories for my characters. I get SO jealous of my friends with actual character stories and it makes me feel awful. Sometimes I get into a sad state and contemplate deleting my art account, but I always think that I'd regret it in the end. I try to be more expressive with my art, but when I draw, I can't really think of an image in my head. For example, I'm drawing a face. I go to draw the mouth and I can't picture what I want it to look like. It takes me SEVERAL attempts until I give up and start getting stressed. Sometimes I end up crying. It's kind of embarrassing thinking about how I cry over a failed drawing. I might not be alone in that though. I love drawing so much and taking breaks is literally IMPOSSIBLE for me. I really don't know what to do. I get a knot in my throat thinking about it and my eyes start tearing up. I don't want to quit but at the same time I do. I just want to be better, but it doesn't seem like its working no matter how hard I try. I don't really know anymore.
I know it's the same day, but today I made a T-shirt in my art class!! I am very proud of it!! It turned out pretty well for my first T-shirt, but I also wish it was a bit smaller. Also, I feel like it looks bad on me because, well, I think everything looks bad on me. I should probably work on being more confident. :^[
This is my first journal entry! I don't really know how to feel about it. I'm kind of bad at writing about what's been on my mind, but I hope that this will be an interesting experience for me atleast.